god help me

i can still hear his voice...
hear his laugh...
i can see him...
my father...
standing infront of me...
my arms wide open for him to pick me up...
i feel so small...
but now he's gone...
i can't handle it...
my daddy's gone...
i cry...
i pray...
i say...
god...
help me...
why did he have to do this to us...
i look at his picture...
i can hear voices going through my head...
there telling me...
don't cry...
he'll be back...
don't cry...
but i don't listen...
i try to hide it...
but i can't...
god help me...

free

my life is a blur,
i cant quite explain it,
if only you knew what i was,
if only you knew what i did,
i feel as if im in a cage,
something i cant get out of,
ive dreamed of something real,
something that i could be,
me and my scrood up life,
ive thought about it for years,
but there was nothing i could do,
ive always felt like i would leave something behind,
but ive only "felt" that way,
there is nothing for me,
nothing that i no of,
i try to get it,
but something is holding me back,
i want to be free,
i need to be free,
but i cant do it myself,
i need help,
i need someone who loves me to unlock my cage,
and carry me out,
but i dont know who,
who could love me enough,
who would do this for me,
and set me free,
please,
help me.....

gone with the stars

i tryed to make it right,
i felt that we were so tight,
my love for him fell,
when he put my sole to hell,
the night sky holds my once a beautiful thought,
now that all i feel now is as if i got shot,
i thought it would be forever,
when he showed me that it would be never,
i cry when i look at the stars,
because of all of my new scars,
being in love is one thing,
it just makes your heart want to sing,
when i see a falling star,
it just takes my heart far,
so when people ask me where my dreams went,
i tell them that love put in a big dent,
and that all i have left from love are scars,
and that my love is gone with the stars,